Sunday, April 4, 2010
Kaydence is having a better Easter than any of us here!
Today, we thought we would go to the grave to see "sissy" because it was Easter and all. We have not enjoyed taking Micah there lately, not because it is sad for him or sad for us that he is there, but because he keeps on stealing the toys off the other kids graves. We will turn around to find him setting there playing with a fire truck. "Where did you get that Micah?" I always hope we put them back on the right grave. Hilary and I were talking about Easter and how great it must be for Kaydence today. We can only dream of the resurrected body of Jesus, but she is there with Him now...looking into His eyes and hugging Him. We have had a rough few weeks here lately with her death. It only took about 3 months, but we fell apart...myself included in that. I don't know what happened...or what triggered the emotion, but it just seemed to come out of nowhere. I let my boss have it real good last week, so we had a sit down talk in the office on Friday. I told her I was sorry and she told me not to...I know that she knows what is going on because she lost her husband at a very young age and she went through many of the same things as I am going through now. What a help she was on Friday...talking to me about stuff. There was one particular thing she mentioned that I understood very well and I guess you just have to go through something like this to understand to its fullest. Once the dust settles and the body is burried, pretty much everyone goes back to their normal life they had before everything happened (I'm not saying people aren't effected in some ways, but their life does go back to normal- almost as if nothing happened, because it didn't happen to them). They will leave as a family and come back as a family to the same life, but we leave changed forever...never to be the same again. Our pastor was talking about the event of the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ. It was one of those events that changed the course of history forever...never to be the same again. He also talked about how tragic it is that there are people walking around today as if it never happened. We now have a chance to mend our broken relationship with God and are offered forgiveness for our sins...and a place to live for eternity with Him. Such an amazing thing to have happened and there are people walking around out there as if nothing ever happened. When I spoke with Hilary after the service, we both grasped the same point. Just like seeing people go back to their normal lives after the death of Kaydence...people went back to their normal lives after the death of Jesus on the cross. And still today...people walk around as if it didn't happen. They are still living their own lives...doing whatever pleases them. On this day, I pray that the death and resurrection of Jesus is not just some event that happened in history to you. I pray that it changes everything you do to the core. May every part of your life be effected by the blood and power of Jesus. Happy Easter!