Monday, January 25, 2010
We needed some time away!
I walked over to the sink and washed my hands after I got grease on them from the chicken wings we got from Little Ceasars. As I was washing my hands, I noticed a very small thing, but yet a thing that does make a difference. The water didn't smell! Some of you reading this will chuckle a little as you very well know what I am talking about. Our family went to Gatlinburg, TN this weekend from Friday until today for a little vacation from it all. We went there with our baby group- the group we met while going through classes at the hospital here in town before Micah was born. The class taught us how to deal with babies. I always tell people that we gained absolutely no knowledge from those classes, but we did gain some pretty incredible friends who went through the same things as we did at the same time. These friends also stuck by our side through all the trials and triumphs of our family as we went through our journey with Kaydence. The cabin we rented for the weekend was real nice, but we must have been on a different water source because it stunk. At some points I would run the water and wander who it was that passed gas; and at other moments I would run the water because I needed to pass gas. Things like that make some of the fondest memories though and I did enjoy the time away from the chaos of normal life. The cabin had many features that didn't work when we got there- such as wireless internet...we didn't need to communicate with anyone anyway. When we got back into town, I was moving our baggage over to our explorer and I paused for a short second. I saw two green plastic pieces in the back so I picked them up and looked at them with Kaydence on my mind. Each one of the new oxygen tanks would have a plastic green piece on the top to let us know that it was full. We always had to pull it off before we switched her over to a new tank. It is interesting how a simple little object will mean nothing to you while you are using it, then later it will stop you dead in your tracks to remind you of something you went through when you were using it. I miss her tonight pretty bad. I wish I could go over to the couch and tell her that I love her...and give her a kiss on her forehead like I always did when she was here. I have never lost someone- until recently- that I spent time with day in and day out. It feels like she is real far away from me tonight. There were times when Kaydence was with us that I felt like our family was in a kind of a prison- because we couldn't do things like what we just did this weekend...I miss that life. If you are out there still praying for our family, I ask that you keep us in your prayers tonight. I appreciate everything you guys have done along the way...we don't deserve to have such loving people around us, but we love it.