What is inside of you?

"There would be no sense in saying you trusted a person if you would not take his advice. Thus if you have really handed yourself over to Him, it must follow that you are trying to obey Him. But trying in a new way, a less worried way. Not doing these things in order to be saved, but because He has begun to save you already. Not hoping to get to Heaven as a reward for your actions, but inevitably wanting to act in a certain way because a first faint gleam of Heaven is already inside you."
"Mere Christianity" by C.S. Lewis

I was reading today- as I do on a fairly often basis- and I came into contact today with what I have posted above. It only makes sense that you naturally act on behalf of what you have inside of you. A few chapters back, C.S. Lewis spoke about the Center being: "I would much rather say that every time you make a choice you are turning the central part of you, the part of you that chooses, into something a little different from what it was before. And taking your life as a whole, with all your innumerable choices, all your life long are slowly turning this central thing either into a heavenly creature or into a hellish creature: either into a creature that is in harmony with God, and with other creatures, and with itself, or else into one that is in a state of war and hatred with God, and with its fellow-creatures, and with itself." I have lately thought often about what C.S. Lewis is talking about above with the "central part of you", and found that I am much farther from God morally than I thought I was. Do you do the things that you do because of something inside of you crying out to do them, or do you do them because you think- even very faintly- that there may be something in it for you in some way...maybe God points? For a man, you may look out your window and see a jogger running down the sidewalk and look in your mirror, once you pass by, only to find out that the nice legs belonged to another man. You may not have seen anything or thought anything, but why were you looking at the jogger in the first place? That is the Central part of you C.S. Lewis is talking about. The choice to look out your window is a moral choice that is either making you more into a heavenly creature, or a hellish one. Who is this person inside of me Mr. Lewis speaks of as the "central part of you?" Sometimes, it is a good thing to take a long look into the mirror to find out who you are...no matter how ugly you find yourself to be in the end. At the end, when God strips you down to just the central part of you, the part of you that makes the internal decisions, will you recognize yourself? I believe you have to find out just how ugly you are on the inside to recognize how much you need the work of Jesus on the Cross. We truly are not worthy of being in the presence of God in His Heaven...but the work of Christ on the Cross made it possible for us, because He is worthy and He has given us His Righteousness as a clothing. What an incredible thing He did for all of us!